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The Trouble Boy by Tom Dolby

 

 

Rating: (Mildly Recommended)

 

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Jaded as I may be from having read too many debut novels about one lifestyle or another as one comes of age, especially in New York City, I found myself reading Tom Dolby’s first novel, The Trouble Boy, and wondering whether he was making fun of the genre or joining in it. I’m still unsure. Toby Griffin arrives in New York with his Yale degree and wants it all: money, fame, his screenplay optioned, and a boyfriend at his side. What he gets is a freelance job at a failing online magazine, and lots of time in the club scene. Here’s an excerpt, all of chapter 6, pp. 97-103, set as Toby returns home to San Francisco:

 

When my plane landed in San Francisco, I experienced a familiar sinking feeling as I anticipated seeing my parents. It was the feel­ing that there was a continental divide between us that had to be crossed, a gap of understanding to be bridged.

I thought of them as sophisticated people, though San Francisco is a city that tends more toward the provincial than the cosmopolitan. To a longtime San Franciscan, New York car­ried with it a whiff of sin, of ill intent. My mother had always lived in large cities; she grew up in Rome, the product of an Italian mother and a German father. She attended the American University of Rome, making that choice, she said, because she wanted to marry an American. After completing a major in dance, she moved to New York with her boyfriend, a young man with a trust fund, and they lived at the Plaza Hotel for three months. She failed to find work as a dancer, instead becoming fascinated by the machinations of Seventh Avenue. After the ro­mance faded, she enrolled at F.I.T. and found herself an apart­ment in the Village with three other Italian girls. In the spring of her senior year, she was rushing several bolts of fabric down to her studio on Twentieth Street on a Friday afternoon when she ran into my father, who was visiting from California. A native of Palo Alto, he had just completed his M.B.A. at Stanford. She showed him the town that weekend, and six months later, they were married. Glad to be freed of New York’s sticky summers and biting winters, she set up her household in San Francisco in 1975.

Thus it was with a mix of fear and regret that my parents viewed my current situation. My mother, after all, could have stayed in Manhattan. She could have married a New York banker and ended up on Park Avenue. She could have started her own boutique in the Village and continued to live as a quasi­Bohemian. My father could have chosen to move out to New York himself. But none of those things had happened. They were now Californians, and I was on my way to becoming a New Yorker, which meant I was a different breed entirely, one not to be trusted, regardless of the fact that I was their only son.

 

My father greeted me at the gate at SF0 with an obligatory grin. He looked the same as always: a little paunchy, soft around the edges, though still handsome.

“How’s New York been treating you?” he asked, the question he always asked.

“Great,” I said, since the truth was too hard to explain.

“Your mom wanted to pick you up, but she’s been busy with her Thanksgiving preparations. You know how she always tries to do a little too much each day.”

He asked about the Web site, and so I told him about the funding crisis, leaving out the part about the possibility of his in­vesting. Explaining it all, combined with the previous evening’s debauchery, was making my stomach turn.

“I don’t know, Toby, it doesn’t sound very stable. How about something more traditional, like marketing or PR? You’re good at that sort of thing.”

“I want to be able to write,” I explained, though he already knew this.

“That’s fine,” he said. “But we don’t always get to do the things we want to do. Sometimes you have to pay your dues.”

 

When I arrived at my parents’ house on the edge of Pacific Heights, it was filled with the aroma of multiple meals being pre­pared: a cioppino for tonight, cornbread and pumpkin pie for tomorrow. Mercedes, my parents’ housekeeper, was busily stuff­ing the turkey, her small hands stuck up its ass. My mother, who still enjoyed cooking, was preparing a salad. She was dressed in

a slim pantsuit under an apron; her figure was the result of diet­ing, yoga, and a complicated liposuction procedure done several years ago that had put her in a girdle for ten days. Her shoulder-length hair, which she still had highlighted every two weeks, was a rich honey blond whose variations she had asked her colorist to copy directly from a real leopard coat of hers.

“My darling,” she said, hugging me. “You look good. Have you lost weight?” My mother’s Italian accent, as much as I was used to it, never failed to surprise me when I hadn’t seen her in a while.

She opened a bottle of champagne. “Our hero has returned from New York!” she exclaimed, toasting me. My stomach was feeling a little better—perhaps simply due to making it home— so I took a sip. I wasn’t looking forward to explaining about CityStyle, about my check not coming through, about borrow­ing some money to tide me over.

Instead of worrying, I did what I always did when I returned home: I ate.

Despite my mother’s propensity for thinness, she was a master when it came to orchestrating meals. We all dug into the rich red cioppino, spooning out mussels, clams, and prawns into large bowls.

“This Web page,” my mother said after we had been eating for a few minutes. “I don’t really understand it. Every time I pull it up, I find it hard to read. The color combinations, the type: I suppose it is not for people my age.”

“They do try to push the envelope a bit on the design,” I said.

“Readability should be key,” my father said.

“Is it my imagination, or does it have a column called ‘StarFucker’?” my mother asked.

“I don’t write for that,” I said, hoping they hadn’t seen my piece about Real World Guy.

“This woman who says she slept with Mick Jagger? What’s the big deal? Everyone slept with Mick Jagger at some point or another!”

My father laughed. “You never did.”

“I just think there are more important things to write about.”

 “I don’t see how the site makes any money,” my father said.

“Actually,” I said, “they’re looking for additional investors. I wanted to ask you two if you were interested.”

“Ha!” He laughed as if I had suggested he jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. “You think we would invest in an Internet venture!”

“Toby, we really don’t have the money right now to do such a thing,” my mother said.

“Isabella, don’t say—”

“I think it’s important Toby understands what our situation is.”

They explained to me that revenue at my father’s company was down 40 percent, and my mother’s company was nearing bankruptcy.

“How can that be?” I asked. “I thought the label was doing well.”

“Everyone thinks that,” she said. “We’re a private company, so no one ever sees the figures. But people aren’t buying couture anymore. It’s a dying breed of fashion.”

“Why don’t you do what everyone else is doing?” I asked.

“And what would that be?” She looked at me sternly, as if I had no business making such suggestions to her.

“Branch out. Do a bridge line. Do fragrances, accessories.”

“Toby, that takes a tremendous amount of money. And you know I’ve never taken on investors. Besides, all those bridge lines are just shit, pardon me.” She started waving her hands around for emphasis, something she did whenever she was ex­cited. “They are just watered down versions of the original vi­sion! If I’m going to do that kind of thing, I might as well not do it at all!”

“You can’t close down the company,” I said. It was impossi­ble to imagine my mother not running her studio.

“There are a number of people interested in buying. I just had a meeting last week with LVMH, though I’m not sure I can meet their terms.”

“You’re going to sell to LVMH?” I couldn’t imagine my mother’s label becoming part of a bigger operation. However, owned by a company like LVMH, it would be visible alongside the Guccis of the world.

“Let’s not presume anything,” she said.

“The important thing,” my father said, “is we would prefer you come home. Your rent every month isn’t cheap, and I want to see you creating a solid future in something. All this Web site stuff can be fun, but how different is it from working on the col­lege paper? It just seems frivolous.”

“It’s not frivolous,” I said. “It’s serious journalism. I know it’s not politics or business reporting, but people use the site as a re­source. They rely on us.”

“Just think about it,” my father said. “Six months from now, what do you want to be able to say you’ve done with your time in New York? I was talking with the father of one of your class­mates—what’s her name, the Carr girl?—and he said she’s been working as an analyst at Goldman Sachs.”

“What an experience!” my mother said. A classmate of mine could be digging ditches and my parents would think it was fab­ulous.

“A lot of my friends do that sort of thing, and they hate it,” I said. “They would kill to be doing what I’m doing.” I looked at my mother. “You should understand. I’m not the type who can just do what everyone else is doing.”

“He has a point, Simon. It wouldn’t be fair to tell my own child he has to be like everyone else.”

“I’m afraid you’re living in a fantasy world. You have no idea of the things that comprise daily life.”

There was no arguing with them. And I certainly couldn’t ask them for money. CityStyle not making payroll would just be one more nail in the dot-com coffin.

 

“Let’s talk about something more pleasant,” my mother said, and I knew exactly what we wouldn’t be talking about.

The thing about coming out to my parents—after all the ex­planations, the fighting, the tears—was that it was still impossi­ble to discuss relationships or dating. The phrase “I’m seeing someone” brought up a multitude of disastrous images: the AIDS-ridden guys my mother pictured me falling into bed with, the sodomy my father imagined me committing. They hated think­ing about the lack of societal acceptance, the inability to have children. To a liberal mind, these were all barriers that could be overcome, but to my parents, two people whose primary contact with homosexuals prior to my coming out was with the florist, the tailor, and the hairdresser, these were not lifestyle choices to be taken lightly. True, my mother had employed a handful of gay guys at her studio over the years, but she regarded them simi­larly, as members of a service industry whose practices in the bedroom were not for her to comprehend.

It took my mother longer than my father to accept that I was gay. While my father saw it purely as biology, of winning the gay gene in the genetic lottery, my mother always thought it was her fault, that she had made me gay. She even once told me I was gay because I hated her and therefore hated all women, both of which I assured her were not true.

All this, along with the introduction of a variety of boyfriends of dubious quality through the years, had made it all the more difficult for us to relate to each other.

There was a simple way around it: They didn’t ask, and I didn’t tell.

There were insinuations over the years, like the time my mother returned from Costco during a vacation with a jumbo box of con­doms “for your promiscuity,” she said, an assumption she made based on my proclivity for coming home at five in the morning. Or the times my father would ask me in the middle of the evening news “what the gays think about this,” as if I could be responsible for the opinions of the entire world’s homosexual population.

It wasn’t that my parents were squeamish about sex, either. Unlike many parents, mine actually introduced me to the idea of sexuality, explaining the mechanics at an early age. For them, sexuality—as long as it was heterosexuality—was a comfortable issue, not a source of embarrassment but a fact of life, as it should be.

Still, even after I had come out, my father continued to harass me for several years, hoping I would come around to the right side of the fence. When I told my parents about my plans to adopt Gus during my freshman year of college, my father said, “Why don’t you worry less about getting a cat and more about getting some pussy?”

I knew it wasn’t worth it to make them understand.

A lot of pages in The Trouble Boy help all readers understand that Toby has the same struggles as his hetero peers. Some of the writing is punchy and done well, much of it goes on with little merit. Reading debut novels like The Trouble Boy can be refreshing, and for that reason, I’ve awarded it a mild recommendation.

Steve Hopkins, July 26, 2004

 

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